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unspoken words July 4, 2008

Posted by zam's in perjuangan. 1 comment so far

i try to talk to you, but i don’t know what to say. i am afraid you don’t want me to say anything. so i don’t. but inside of me there are words waiting to come out. and tell you how i feel-like how i miss you. and how i love you despite my broken heart. and how i need you in my life. and especially how much I want you. but those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside. sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too… but i’ll never know…

my bread of the day

Posted by zam's in obsesi, perjuangan. 1 comment so far

now many of you without this obsession may feel this describes you. you fear you are doomed to a life of endlessobsessing and misery. what you are recognizing is that this fear is a part of almost all obsessions.

when things go wrong

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when things go wrong as they sometimes will, when the road you are trudging seems all uphill, when the funds are low and the debts are high, and you want to smile, but you have to sigh, when care is pressing you down a bit, rest, if you must, but do not quit.life is queer with its twists and turns,as everyone of us sometimes learns,and many a failure turns about, when he might have won had he stuck it out.

don’t give up though the pace seems slow - you may succeed with another blow.success is failure turned inside out, the silver tint of the clouds of doubt.

and you never can tell how close you are,it may be near when it seems so far. so stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit - it’s when things seem worst that you must not quit.

ingin aku tiada kendala komunikasi

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cepat dan tanggap selayaknya agen rahasia karena perangkat yang memadai. itulah keinginanku sejak kecil. tapi apa daya alat tak memadai. tak lama lagi semuanya akan kumiliki. tak perlu lagi aku memadukan komponen janggal kemanapun aku pergi dimanapun aku berada. pokoknya mudik lebaran nanti tidak memalukan. harus itu!gue nih, kesian khan? 

akan kutaklukkan kecongkakan jakarta! July 2, 2008

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akan kulawan. akan kubuktikan. hanya ada pilihan mati atau sukses. pantang pulang ke kampung halaman. aku harus berjuang seperti mereka!

rindu kota lama

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aku belum kerasan di jakarta, selalu ingat kawan2 lama. di jakarta tiada teman. kalau nemu satu rasanya pengin dipacari karena tiada pilihan. oh kawan2 di kota lama, tahukah kalian bahwa aku di sini menderita lahir dan batin? tapi bagaimanapun juga aku harus sukses! punya uang banyak dan mobil keren lalu istri cantik. ditambah pacar2 yang aduhai. kaya tidak masalah, yang penting cantik! tunggulah saat itu tiba!

aku ingin kulkas ituh!

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oh jakarta yang panas. aku ingin kulkas. yang besar. seperti di video ini. kalau besar kulkasnya bisa ditempelin macem2. sayang sekali yang bikin video ini bodoh banget shootingnya, kulkas diambil dari jauh, nggak ada close up ke tempelan kulkas, udah gitu ada orang yang bolak-balik nutupin kulkas. mustinya mereka belajar sama mas iman untuk bikin video kulkas…

zhakartah yang phanazzzz

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panas, panas, panas. di mana-mana panas. indekosan tidak ada ac. di kantor kalau selepas senja ac dimatikan. ke manakah aku musti berteduh untuk dapatkan kesejukan? aku masuk ke mal. sekedar jalan-jalan dapatkan hawa dingin, menatap wajah-wajah bening pemilik tubuh bersih dengan tanktop yang anti dingin. wanita-wanita berkulit putih, bertubuh kencang, berbau wangi. oh! kamar mereka pasti ada ac. tidak perlu tidur buka baju seperti diriku. aku ingin ke rumah mereka.

nona idamanku suka tank top, kamarnya sejuk, aku ingin memeluk